"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs on your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows."
Matthew 10:29





Sunday, April 10, 2011

It's All Uncharted

As I have said before, I am not a writer. In fact, I am quite terrible with words and can never arrange them properly to communicate what's going on in my heart and my head. I think this is why I appreciate music so much. It often says exactly what I am thinking or feeling in a way I could never communicate on my own.

This song came on the other day and has resonated with me ever since. I'm pretty sure the artists' intentions for this song and my interpretation completely differ; nevertheless, it seems to put into words where I am at in the journey.



Uncharted

No words
My tears won't make any room for more
And it don't hurt
Like anything I've ever felt before, this is
No broken heart
No familiar scars
This territory goes uncharted

Just me
In a room sunk down in a house in a town, and I
Don't breathe
No I never meant to let it get away from me, now
Too much to hold, everybody has to
Get their hands on gold
And I want uncharted

Stuck under this ceiling I made
I can't help but feeling

I'm going down
Follow if you want
I won't just hang around
Like you'll show me where to go

I'm already out
Of foolproof ideas
So don't ask me how
To get started
It's all uncharted

Each day
Counting up the minutes, till I get alone
Cause I can't stay
In the middle of it all, it's nobody's fault, but I'm
So alone, never knew how much I didn't know
Oh, everything is uncharted

I know I'm getting nowhere
When I only sit and stare like

I'm going down
Follow if you want
I won't just hang around
Like you'll show me where to go

I'm already out
Of foolproof ideas
So don't ask me how
To get started
It's all uncharted

Jump start my kaleidoscope heart
Love to watch the colors fade
They may not make sense
But they sure made me

I won't go as a passenger, no
Waiting for the road to be laid
Though I may be going down
I'm taking flame over burning out

Compare
where you are to where you want to be, and you'll get
Nowhere


In my words, I am covering new territory. Discovering places in my heart I never knew existed. Coming to terms with my sin and depravity. Taking a look at the areas that bring me joy and sorrow. I'm finding out who I really am- the person God intended for me to be before the fall and before sins curse. I'm on the path of redemption. It's all so new and frightening and I often feel frustrated that my world has been turned upside down. But there is an element of excitement in it all because it is uncharted. I have no idea what's ahead but all I know is it's too late to turn back now.

1 comment:

  1. jenelle stop it- you are a beautiful writer. blessed already. continue to share- it's encouraging. love you. t

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